Fire side speakers and general authorities whose messages seemed restrictive at the time I probably just took too literally, so not them. And even though I think that everyone in the ward is just waiting to call you out for doing something wrong, I don't think that's how they really are. I think I should instead direct my anger towards Satan, because he's the real culprit. He's the one making me feel judged, because he's judging me! He wants me to feel awful and bad about myself.
Even though I do have an exaggerated view of who is just ready to judge me, there are a few people who bother me mainly because they are this nightmare come true: they really do judge me. I do mainly blow it out of proportion, but these people I'm right about. They include the former youth leaders who tell me that praying and reading scriptures will end my depression because I won't be separated from God. And it's those dang Daily Universe readers' forum writers. Those are the judgmental, narrow-minded idiots I loathe and am afraid of.
In the end, it doesn't matter what people think of me. All that matters is what I think and what God thinks --not because I'm afraid of Him, but because He has the clearest view of how I am and the best intentions.
Peace, love, and happy Easter!
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